Hello everyone, it is 4 pm on Tuesday. I need to take a walk to go get milk from 7-11. I fixed some poems on my poems page. I might share a link to my rhymes book if I boost a post with that link.  and say five dollar poetry book for sale. but i bet the price went up and it is 6 dollars.

but anyway i just attended an advent class and it was fun.

I need to take the walk very soon before it gets too dark. I mean maybe just take the walk at 5 pm. The traffic will be bad. Hmm I do not know.

Do you gice like my poems? I think I should add the new ones to the mourning jester book but I might wait until there are a few more and do a major edit.

But anyway I do not know. 

I need to email someone and now I might have ruined it but I think I am not mad at that person but I think I might have two relationships with a lot of people from the trauma experience and the conspiracy, I think I actually still have splitting problems from it.

Anyway that was a good class that I just attended. I do not take liberal christians for granted. And they did what they did and hopefully some people will save the day in some way.

Well see you guys later.

 Hello everyone. I just wrote a post that I will send around with the poem link and probably the hot chocolate picture. I think my last boost like that did well and I got five hundred blog views. That is the most ever. That could have changed my life in 2010. I would have been a national author.

So anyway, people made their choice to cancel people like me and now look. 

Ok, another thing to say. Using the names of certain places in the next post. I believe I got the names right. Also, saying another "round of rewards." That really is what I mean to say and is not a mention of a person with a certain last name.

I do not feel seizure symptoms while saying any of this. 

Anyway hopefully that will all be okay.

This post could be a nice juicy find for people who further explore the blog. I believe there is not that much for them to find on this blog though, of interest. It is all in the books and the books are good.

And people wanted good to not be good but it is good.

Anyway, that is enough. If I reread any posts and think it is not good enough then I will fix something.

I do not know when I am sending more ads around. I do not know if I should have done more videos. I think the videos did go well but I feel mixed feelings when I do the videos now and I really needed some numbers and disagree with whoever felt that I could tolerate zeroes in the way that I had to. But I actually still think a normal writing path would have been better and the torture was not beneficial.

December Actual Blog Post

 Hello everyone, welcome to my blog. It is mainly an actual day-to-day journal. I recently shared a real post though, about some suffering. Some people liked the post, and some people didn't. I think some people who didn't like the post thought I was calling them a rival, but it wasn't them. So hopefully we will work that out sometime.

In this post I am discussing something else which is my excusal from the social justice movement. I know some people judged me because I did not trash all my lifelong friends from the south during the first Trump presidency. I could just keep quiet about it in the same way they accuse me of keeping too quiet about Trump, but eventually I think I will fully express how hurt I am that people were mean to me so personally for several years as my lost writing career became finalized. 

I can see that I am not ready to write about it and have to let things play out as my books finally reach people as a resurrected gift for young people. I think there will still be some bullies who try to question the absence of political posts on my facebook pages. But the fact is that I took my stand over twenty five years ago and lost five careers before anyone started "speaking out" about anything. I made friends to survive and treated them well and still plan to. Only facebook's hypocritical algorithms can come between us.

Anyway, there is a conspiracy and I thank you all for participating. I pray for crowds and strangers and used to pray up "jackpot prayers" where I would reassign all the blessings requested in different contexts and ask them to be gifted to new populations.  And today I thought of a new blessing which is a "prayer life jackpot," where you reassign all the requests from entire prayer lives to be given to large countries and time periods.  That is a good one isn't it? Well I am a monk in the prime of my prayer timeline so I should certainly be making requests like that for the world. Think of it, a Princeton Seminary "prayer life jackpot" requested for all of China. Or an American "prayer life jackpot" reassigned over the next millennium. 

"You can't do that," say some people. I believe I absolutely can, and all it takes is a question and heart attitude to change any magical thinking into the most effective of prayers.

Anyway, what was I saying before that. It was about how nothing I did was good enough for the liberal political machine, and it reminds me of the parents of gay kids in the 90s. Unpleasable control freaks. That is my social work assessment of the people who were mean to me. If it is not you, then don't feel bad. I am sure that there will be another round of rewards for everyone forever, and frankly, I believe most people we all know will be there for a good and happy portion of both mercy and justice.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Monday, December 15 at 9:30 pm. Tonight I went to my creative writing group and wrote two poems which were keepers. So now I am up to 8 recent rhymes and I think that it could become a habit. And some will be keepers and some won't. I like rhyming again and that will be good. The question is whether I am starting over with creative life and I have to say I still feel a dwindle and decline and a foundation.

So anyway I had a good day today but woke up kind of late. But I am glad I got sleep because I woke up early this weekend twice. Also today I made some stir fry beef with soy sauce and honey. I wanted it to make a glaze but the sauce was too runny but I added a little bit of milk and it ended up being a cool sauce for the cornbread casserole.  So that worked out. I think I am still maintaining a better food habit and soon will be exercise. 

I can see the next posting pattern for the art page and might do an ad with a poem link and book link. I mean you never know if maybe there are some secret sales for Ravneet.

I think I forgot to talk to Ravneet today. She is probably tired now. 

I got bad snap mail today but still feel hopeful about medicaid but might at least keep medicare.

I clicked like on someone's post after praying for them recently but it might be a trick and some kind of lure for conservatives but I just do the best I can and don't betray my friends.

I had a good therapy session today with Drena and I will miss her when she is on vacation, but I will hopefully talk to Larissa. Larissa might be mad at me but we do not know. Possibly I can still have a good therapy session even if she is mad.

So okay. That is all. Have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Monday, Dec 15. 

My facebook posts are doing okay and I think the numbers will be okay and improve a little bit at the end.

I might do a mega boost for that stone post that I have waited five months to send around. But it wont be ultra mega, just mega.

What happened to the christmas posts, I just did one at a time. I will do the hot chocolate soon too but it won't be mega so it will seem lesser but that is okay.

I think I should go through those facebook pages and delete some of the art that is not as good.

I am signed up for group therapy now and I hope it goes okay. I think the other two groups are in the works.  I talk to my therapist today at 3 pm. That is in about one hour.

I need to walk to the post office but that might be tomorrow. Or I don't know, maybe at 4 today.

I am being patient about finding out about medicaid. 

I think I will call my friend John Cochran soon.

I talked to my friend Liz and that is going great and her dog is okay after an attack.

Gice that shooting yesterday really shook me up. 

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Gice today I had two meetings for children's book writing. It was fun but I let down a member who sent me glasses to decode something online. I thought it was for our meeting so I did not open it.

I think it will be okay.

A while ago I was going to make toast and eat it with jam but the bread was moldy. Honestly that happened kind of fast. The bread was not that old.

So hat should I eat for dinner. I do not know. I should eat something good soon. I ate eggs and sausage yesterday and the day before. Are you gice thinking pancakes? Hmm maybe that is it. I think I can wait a while because I had a gingerbread cookie and some chips and guacamole.  So then I will make pancakes.

But do I have enough milk. I think I do. I think. I might heat up a can of soup though. I mean maybe that is easier and still do the pancakes later.

Gice I feel incomplete from my group because I didn't do perfect but it is okay. We were missing two members. It will be okay. I feel like I must have hurt that person but I did not mean to.

Ok what else. I am sending around some blobs and I feel like the numbers aren't that good and I don't know why. Maybe it will increase some and maybe I can also click like on the comments more soon.

Was I supposed to do christmas shares instead of other blobs? Well I think it is okay.

I might do a big boost for that stone cross meme that I have waited on for some reason. Like run it for a whole week like those other posts.

Ok what else is going on. I figured out what I want to get the nieces for christmas. It will be fine. I feel like I don't know them because I did not talk to them very much this year but of course I still know them from other times. I am starting to get kind of memory weird sometimes.  

Later I have bible study. Today was kind of a challenge with two meetings but it went okay. 

I watched some of my church online this morning and that was good. I think I should attend prayer time and or creative writing.

I will do that soon on Wednesdays.

What else is going on. I mean I do not really know.

I just feel like this facebook boost should have reached more people but it is still a good feeling.

Do you gice think I should try to get a kirkus review? I mean I do not know.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Saturday, Dec 13. I am doing okay. I need to find out if my medicaid got fixed. I might call them soon.

There are some meringues in the oven. I usually do forgotten cookies but could not find the chocolate chips.  Where are the chocolate chips? I have half and bag and some butterscotch chips and I can't find them. I know where they are. I think I put them in the rice krispie box. Okay that was weird. I guess make some more cookies soon.

I will make lemon cookies soon too.  That is weird that happened about not being able to find the chocolate and butterscotch chips. It did make me go a little crazy.

So okay. I called two friends today. I only talked to one of my friends for half a call but it felt back to normal but I can't fully trust that person but live and learn. If it becomes a habit then I will just avoid.  

I also talked to my friend Justin who is an artist and it was jsut really unexpected to get that blast of creativity as he works on cool puppet projects and events with other costume people.

So that is neat. I think there are some networks other than persecutors out there.

Also on my list is to maybe watch the old new babes in toyland movie. It was a favorite of me and my sister and I think some friends might like it if I posted it on facebook.

So okay. I am really happy about these meringues, I hope they turn out well. I think about twenty more minutes on a low oven temperature will about do it.

This phone call to medicaid might not go well but it is not my fault but it is a problem. It is a government problem and could be the beginning of me being persecuted by a bad government which used to be something other countries did.  And really insurance has never been perfect here but this is a new level of disfunction as far as I experience it. It might affect God's blessing on the whole nation to have problems like this.

So anyway I guess I will do some more ai pictures but I don't know. I felt like a break from that was good. Am I wrong? Are people waiting for more cool creations? Well I do not know. I feel like I don't have any more ideas.

Well, that is all for now, have a good day everyone.